Friday, January 4, 2013

A Post I Don't Want to Write



I think part of my reservations with what to do about this new year is knowing that this post was coming, but more importantly that this life change was coming. When M used to joke that Tiggre was just going to live forever I think that I honestly believed it in my heart that this day wouldn't come. But ever since Christmas when he just wasn't quite himself, I knew that this was coming. Today, we have to say goodbye to Tiggre, the cat that I thought was going to live forever.

I can still remember the day that Tiggre became part of our family. I was in first grade, and my mom and Ali went off to a bunch of different shelters to find an orange tabby cat. We had decided as a family that we could get a cat, specifically I wanted an orange tabby cat to name Tiggre. At lunch that day, they came to visit me at school only to let me know that they hadn't found an orange tabby cat yet. This was devastating to me, so I cried and cried in the cafeteria.

But to my delight, when I went home from school that afternoon, there was a small, shy kitten waiting for me. And once he warmed up to my sister and I, he was the perfect cat: easy-going and child-friendly. Somewhere at my parents' house is a photo of my sister and I with Tiggre dressed in doll clothes riding in a doll stroller. I'll have to find that photo now.

After 18.5 years, we have to say goodbye. But that's not a small chunk of time. That's part of who I am. He's been there through the good times and the bad. He's caught too many mice, birds and bunnies to count. And even after adding more cats to our home, you'd know that Tiggre brought them back because he had a certain way of leaving them. I'll leave that part out. But he still found his way to your bedroom to purr and rub against you at the moments when you did need him the most. So even though I no longer live in my childhood home where Tiggre has spent his entire life, I feel like I'm losing a piece of me.

I'm grateful that we've had all these years with him, but I know that another little part of my heart will go to heaven when Tiggre leaves us today. Goodbye to the most perfect orange tabby that a little girl could have ever dreamed of and thank you for your love all of these years.
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23 comments:

Alisha said...

Awww, I'm so sorry. It's always so hard to lose a pet. Makes me miss my past pups. :/

Love that darling picture of him tho. That's awesome that you got that shot of him!

Morgan Neal said...

Aww I am so sorry dear! Miss you!

Ruthie Hart said...

awww girl... I am sorry! I am not cat person but know how pets can impact lives. What a long life T lived! and so glad you have Louie to hold on to

Rach @ This Italian Family said...

I'm so sorry, friend. I know how hard this is. *hugs*

Tyly said...

I'm so sorry. Pets ARE family, and I'm sorry you're having to say goodbye. Hugs!

Marjorie said...

In tearing up reading this. Pets are a part of the family. They touch every part of your life which is why when their gone you can never stop thinking of them or being reminded of them :(

Christin said...

So sorry, friend. Thinking about you today!

Mademoiselle Michael said...

Oh no :'( This makes me really sad. I'm so sorry. Pets are such a part of the family--it's devastating when they leave us. Hang in there girlie. He sounded like such a great cat :)

meg said...

I am so sorry!!! I have a 17 year old orange kitty at my parents' house that drinks the exact same way out of the sink. I know how hard losing a pet is and how much a part of a family they are.

Claire said...

Sorry for your loss friend! Finn is keeping Tiggre in his prayers!

Charlee R said...

I'm so sorry for your loss! It's absolutely heart breaking to say good bye to a pet- especially one that's been part of the family for so long.

xo
Charlee Anne @ thepreppygraduate.com

Christen said...

Awww, so sorry for your loss! It is always so hard to lose a pet... Keeping you in my thoughts.

tara said...

oh no!! i am so so sorry, girl! :( breaks my heart!

Janna Renee said...

I'm so sorry girl! We had our cat, Harry {Connick the 3rd}, my whole life and when he passed it was like Uncle Harry passed...Odd that I thought of a cat as an uncle, but that's how it goes sometimes. At least we know they lived full lives and were happy. {{Hugs}}

Molly S. said...

Awww Amanda. I'm so sorry :( I cannot even imagine the feeling. Hugs your way and just know Tiggre is in cat heaven doing what cats do best. I feel awful I just saw this. Gosh I have been the worst blog friend ever. Sending lots of love to you!

Natalie said...

Awww so sorry for your loss my friend.

Meg {henninglove} said...

ahh amanda i am so sorry to hear this news! it is hard to loose a pet especially as long as your kitty lived.

Optimistic Existentialist said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Tiggre :( pets become such an important part of our lives

Whitney said...

i am ao sorry - pets truly become family and i can only imagine how sad you must feel. i am thinking of you!

femmefrugality said...

Oh, Amanda! I feel so bad about crying about giving my turtle away, now! I'm so sorry. That IS a huge chunk of your life. He'll always be with you in your heart. And at least he got to live a long, loved life. I'm so sorry.

Sundresses and Smiles said...

So sorry to hear about the loss of Tiggre! Sounds like he lived a great life though-- losing a pet can be so hard!

DWei said...

So sorry for your loss. At least he went peacefully and in comfort. :(

Lisa said...

Aw I am so sorry :( Losing a pet is so difficult, they are such a big part of the family. Thinking of you all.