Thursday, June 28, 2012

Real Life

Today, I'm getting real with you all. Yes, I'm a super optimistic, grateful girl who loves my boyfriend, family, friends, and puppy, but I'm not always sunshine and rainbows.

In real life, I don't always have a smile on my face.

In real life, I've been struggling to balance everything and haven't been putting myself first.

In real life, I haven't worked out in almost a month, except for running a road race two weeks ago and doing one boot camp. This makes me sad.

In real life, I'm eating way more take out and fast food than I normally would like. (Yes, we had McDonald's twice last week.)

In real life, the apartment isn't fully unpacked yet nor "homey". This drives me nuts.

In real life, I snap at M sometimes or take out my frustrations on him. It's not right or fair to him, but I try to apologize when I realize I'm doing it. Seriously, I need to go for a run.

In real life, I have gray hairs. It's not just one here or there, but many. I bought my root touch-up two weeks ago and finally dyed it on Friday.

In real life, my gray hairs are something I'm extremely insecure and self conscious about.

In real life, I'm still trying to figure out how to make time for me now that Louie is part of our lives.

In real life, I appreciate the simple things, like puppy kisses, dinner with family because they live so close, M's romantic side and sense of humor, and a full-time job.

In real life, I'm the person that you get to know on my blog and more.

What are you like in real life that you don't always share on your blog?
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24 comments:

AlliFerg said...

I took my the longest hiatus from running since I started running (7th grade cross country? I'm 25 ... so a long time) earlier this year. Sometimes life just happens but running loves you back when you're ready again!

And gray hairs, me too! I have like 1,301. It's crazy. I always gripe about it but sister, who is hairstylist, says no one ever notices them ;)

Claire said...

Love this! At least you can thoughtfully notice that maybe you're not spending enough time on yourself and turn it all around! I hope you get to run soon- I know how Mr C gets if he doesn't run! Hopefully today you have a day more about smiling and less about gray hairs ;)

Adam said...

I actually haven't moved since I was a toddler. So I don't know how unpacking feels, but I'm sure it's a nightmare. Just helping my brother move can give the idea. Just getting the stuff in there was a hard day's work.

Amy Powell said...

I love this. Makes me feel like I know you a lot more :) Thanks for sharing!!

and good luck with it all. balance is SO HARD to come by. I'm always struggling with it.

Ashley @ The Sweet Life said...

It was nice to read this...feels like you're here in real life. I'm sorry you're having a rough time with a few things. Just remember that we all go through this stuff, we all get grey hairs, and we all have weeks where we eat out more than we eat in. Don't be toooo hard on yourself. At least you're aware and you want to do better for yourself. You'll get there :)

Sending you a hug!

Brooke Houston said...

...not working out in almost a month Ugh! I'm with you on this one. It sucks! It's so hard to get out and run when the temp is 100 degrees outside by noon. Thanks for sharing!

Mademoiselle Michael said...

I love that you're authentic and you refuse to be fake. Probs why I just love ya. So, if it makes you feel any better, I'm actually not really able to run because I have arthritis in my knees so they lock up and then I'm left doing this weird thing where I'm not really walking and I'm not running; it's certainly not a jog...but it's a whole hell of a lot of awkward lol. I think we have this idea that Summer will be laid back and easy...and then all of a sudden it sneaks up on us and it's soo busy. There's so much to do, and no time for ourselves.

What I don't share on my blog is that I'm in pain every single day. People would get sick of hearing it. Sometimes it makes me so cynical, and the stuff that I write is a little to Franz Kafka to share on the blog. Haha.

poptartyogini said...

in real life, the dispatcher at the a/c company where i work just left on vacation. i am filling in and have less than no confidenc in my ability to dispatch. especially when it is 100 degrees outside. i'm overwhelmed and a little scared.

Jenny said...

I am with you are the lack of exercise. I am just having a hard time balancing it all. On the outside its all honky dory but on the inside my body needs to work out. And I need it for my sanity.

Hope you get that run in and start to organize the apartment.

Meghan said...

i love how open and honest you are, and I think we've all been there, girl! In real life, I sometimes feel inadequate, meaning, even though I have an awesome job and wonderful husband, I should have MORE to show for my life at age 32.

Molly Jac said...

I love posts like this. And I adore you. Sometimes in the blog world it's easy to just post the good stuff, but what really makes us...us, is all the other stuff that makes us HUMAN. I'm guilty too with the not working out, eating bad, and all that. It makes me feel like crap and be short and testy with everyone around me it seems like. And we all get gray hairs, don't feel insecure. You are GORGEOUS with gray hairs, without gray hairs, inside and out. I know what you mean though, I imagine when the day comes for me I will freak. But tis life and it happens to everyone. I'm so glad I've gotten to know you through our blogs. You inspire me girl!

HAPPY THURSDAY!!!!!!!

Molly Jac said...

Oh and what I don't tell or show on my blog is that I'm too stinking poor right now to shop or spend any money for that matter so I rock the t and athletic shorts literally everyday. I could def. not be a fashion blogger. Like, opposite.

Kristin said...

Amen for honesty! In real life, I work out everyday and blog everyday, but I can't keep things neat and clean for the life of me! Priorities are funny things. Also, I spend a lot of time staring at the t.v./computer just wondering how I came to be living in AK by myself.
We're all trying but no one of us can do it all, Amanda :)

Ruthie Hart said...

okay, you are NOT alone on the gray hairs. Jon has found a handful on me over the past year...WTH!?!?!?

Leigh said...

Since I stopped dying my hair almost a year ago, I've noticed that I have a couple grey hairs! Scares me if I have them already at 25 and no kids...what happens when the kids come?!

Elle Sees said...

I went grey in my early 20s. My roots come back after a week of not washing my hair. I hate it.
I wish I wasn't so shy in real life and I wish I was as pretty as all the other bloggers. I hate bing unattractive and posting picturs of myself. And I hate this iPad for not letting me erase my mistakes

Tesha Vann said...

In real life - I share my real name among other things.
Thanksf or sharing your 'realness'!

dreaming en francais said...

I love this post and the fact that you are willing to be real with your readers -- as all bloggers should be! xo

http://dreamingenfrancais.blogspot.com/

J and A said...

I love this. Everyone has a lot going on in the real world. :)

Blond Duck said...

In real life, I'm extremely self-critical and scared to admit I never want a 'real, corporate' job.

Lauren said...

I love this (may be stealing it, but of. Purse giving you credit hahah) and I am glad to know I not the only one who sometimes (probably more than I should) snaps at my man.

Neon Blonde Runner said...

Oh Amanda!!! We are all in the same boat!!! I could go on with like 1000 examples like this, just with a little alteration-- like how I haven't been swimming in like 3 months and I had promised myself that I was going to be better about it. We all have our own stuff going on and if you ever thing that anyone is 100% happy, it's not true!

PS I love gray hairs on pretty people with dark hair (you!), I think they're beautiful!

Janna Renee said...

All of this is totally understandable my dear!! I'll tell you two things that helped me to not be snappy. #1 M is NEVER out to get you or upset you, but you will jump to that conclusion in the heat of the moment. If you remember that he means well, but he's a guy and they do stupid stuff it will help. #2 Don't treat M as any less than you would a person on the street or another friend. He is your BEST friend, so treat him as such. Hope any of this helps! xoxo

Lisa said...

Love this post! In real life, there are many, many things I do not blog about. I blog to share our trips and stuff we are up to - really, just the highlights and fun stuff. I do not blog about every day life. I have been debating about it, but it's just not my style, as much as I love reading it from other people :) Thanks for sharing!