I'm linking up with Rebecca at Southern Charm today for "Thankful Thursday." I'm doing a different kind of post today though.
You see, three years ago on Monday, I suffered a very great loss. But it wasn't only me who suffered this great loss, it was a fraternity of young men, a campus, a family, and too many friends to count.
His name was Matt, but I called him Matty. He was my boyfriend at the time, and he suffered from SADS, which took his life at the young age of 20. This loss turned my world upside down, along with all of those who were close to him and cared for him. I don't want to go back through what happened right now, but I do want to share how eternally grateful I am for some people in my life.
After Matt passed, there was a lot of crying, a lack of functioning as a regular human being and a struggle to want to go on with simple life tasks. During that time, I had an incredible group of friends, who I call my "rocks." They were a stable, strong, loving, caring and calm group of people who were there to help me get back to living, to laugh with, to cry with and would do almost anything for me.
I am thankful for these rocks, who were not only on campus with me, but also spread out across the country. I am thankful for having a group of people who I will always be tied to. I am thankful for everyone who I checked in with on Monday. I am thankful for everyone who reached out to say they were thinking of me. I am thankful, very thankful.
But I'm also thankful for the new people who have come into my life since then. I'm thankful for the newer friends in my life who I've felt comfortable enough to share this great loss with. I'm thankful for these people who care about me and know that October 3rd will always be a hard day for me. I'm thankful for the strength that I was able to find in this loss.
And I'm thankful that I have opened my heart up to love again. I'm thankful for M. I'm thankful for how happy he makes me, how he loves me, how he makes me laugh, and how he believes in me.
I'm also thankful for my parents, sister and family for all that they did during this time and continue to do for me. Sometimes life throws us some huge challenges, and it's during those times that we realize how lucky we are and how important it is to be thankful.