Thursday, October 6, 2011

Thankful Thursday: A Tribute to My "Rocks"

I'm linking up with Rebecca at Southern Charm today for "Thankful Thursday." I'm doing a different kind of post today though.


        You see, three years ago on Monday, I suffered a very great loss. But it wasn't only me who suffered this great loss, it was a fraternity of young men, a campus, a family, and too many friends to count.
        His name was Matt, but I called him Matty. He was my boyfriend at the time, and he suffered from SADS, which took his life at the young age of 20. This loss turned my world upside down, along with all of those who were close to him and cared for him. I don't want to go back through what happened right now, but I do want to share how eternally grateful I am for some people in my life.
        After Matt passed, there was a lot of crying, a lack of functioning as a regular human being and a struggle to want to go on with simple life tasks. During that time, I had an incredible group of friends, who I call my "rocks." They were a stable, strong, loving, caring and calm group of people who were there to help me get back to living, to laugh with, to cry with and would do almost anything for me.
         I am thankful for these rocks, who were not only on campus with me, but also spread out across the country. I am thankful for having a group of people who I will always be tied to. I am thankful for everyone who I checked in with on Monday. I am thankful for everyone who reached out to say they were thinking of me. I am thankful, very thankful.
         But I'm also thankful for the new people who have come into my life since then. I'm thankful for the newer friends in my life who I've felt comfortable enough to share this great loss with. I'm thankful for these people who care about me and know that October 3rd will always be a hard day for me. I'm thankful for the strength that I was able to find in this loss.
          And I'm thankful that I have opened my heart up to love again. I'm thankful for M. I'm thankful for how happy he makes me, how he loves me, how he makes me laugh, and how he believes in me.
          I'm also thankful for my parents, sister and family for all that they did during this time and continue to do for me. Sometimes life throws us some huge challenges, and it's during those times that we realize how lucky we are and how important it is to be thankful.

12 comments:

sherri lynn said...

Amanda thank you for sharing about this. I'm so thankful that you had people surrounding you to help you through such a hard time. Having experienced this yourself you now are much more equipped to be the rock for someone else one day!

J and A said...

Wow. Thanks for sharing. I am so glad you have so much support. That must be so hard, then and still now. Hugs.

Annemarie @ Brunch at Saks said...

Great list! Opening your heart to love is hard, scary, but oh-so worth it :) xx

Ruthie Hart said...

Wow Amanda...I applaud you for opening up. I love your honest, full heart. I am SO sorry you had to go through that. My heart hurts knowing the pain you went through. God works in amazing/sometimes frustrating ways and you are such an inspiration. Hugs!

Natalie said...

I'm so glad you have wonderful people in your life to help you through this. I can't imagine how hard this has been for you...and I'm glad you did let M into your life!

Krista said...

Beautiful post Amanda. I'm so sorry you had such a painful experience but glad you found the strength to not only survive but thrive. Having good people around is so important and I'm glad you do :)

♡ Beverly {Preppy Wife Preppy Life} said...

Amanda,
You are such an amazing person. I am sure everyone that surrounded you during that difficult time will always have a special place in your heart. Being thankful for people is a wonderful thing. Even though some leave us sooner than others, we are always thankful that we had them in our lives while we could.

xoxo
love you!

Rebecca said...

This is such a powerful post! I can't even imagine what you must have gone through, but I'm so glad that you have so many wonderful people in your life that helped you get through this. This is a true example of why I do Thankful Thursdays. To not only think about what I'm thankful for but to read posts by y'all and realize even more all the blessings I have in my life. Thank you so much for sharing this xoxo

Megan said...

Awwww, thanks for sharing so honestly from your heart! Love you!

little miss southern love. said...

Wow, Amanda. It takes an incredibly strong person to get through that! And that is exactly what you are. So glad you had friends and family around to support you during that time. I'm not even sure how I would react to something like this happening. Know that your blog friends are always hear to lend an ear or a hand in a time of need :)

xoxo.

Peyton @ When All Else Fails Smile said...

Wow, what a great post Amanda, thank you for sharing. It is those amazing people in our lives that get us through the hard times - I'm glad you have lots that were able to help you.

Neon Blonde Runner said...

Oh Amanda, I had no idea, I am so sorry. I can not even imagine the heart ache that you experienced, but it has made you stronger and has helped shape you to be who you are today!